Depression – Fear, Anxiousness, Dark Thoughts

I have struggled with fearful, anxious and dark thoughts my whole life.  After a very stressful year managing a store working from 8:00 a.m. to 6:00 or later five days a week and trying to juggle everything at home with the kids 5 and 7 year olds. I had met my breaking point. After losing my job at the store I stayed at home and was pretty much a recluse. During this time I had a huge melt down one day when I was getting the house ready for Christmas guests, everything just seemed like it was way to overwhelming, it all ended with me screaming and crying while scrubbing the bathroom floor one hour before guests were to arrive. After dinner I had terrible abdominal pain and very bloody stools, the next morning I started having bad Chest pain and I had the shakes. My E.K.G. showed everything was fine with the heart and the doctor chalked it up to anxiety.  So I walked away with Prevacid and an anti-depressant. This worked for a few weeks until I suddenly got terrible stomach upset so I had to be on stomach ulcer medication also. All the medicine just barely got me by and my depression got really bad and then started having pain in my breast and then into my arm and then both my legs.  The doctor thought I was just a panicked nut case and sent me home with a different medicine to keep me calm.

All of this was so upsetting to me especially since I am only 30 years old. I started thinking a lot about death and wondering what type of cancer I was probably dying of. I also started worrying about my two boys. Worrying about things like one of them getting impaled on a stick while playing, making them wear drab colors to school in case there was a school shooting so that the shooter wouldn’t notice them in their dull colored clothing.

I also flew off the handle easy and my husband and children were getting so tired of it.

Finally after a year and a half of unexplainable pains and aches and terrible doomsday thoughts plaguing my life I went to see Ellen. I wasn’t prepared for the emotional two-hour meeting of digging up my secret past of a childhood that could easily be a Steven King Book. But I am glad that I did, I understand a lot about myself now and how all of this last year and a half even happened to me.

I was able to get off of all my medication from the doctor and within three weeks was not having any more stomach ulcer pain and rarely have reflux discomfort, which is easily controlled.  My pains everywhere else have subsided by 90% I still have a little way to go but it is getting better every day. Also my terrible thoughts are diminishing by leaps and bounds every day. My house is peaceful and happy and my husband and children are at ease.

I am so glad that God put Ellen in my path when he did.  I wanted to be brutally honest in this referral and say things that I know others might be too afraid to tell people about themselves, I did this so that someone else with similar problems could read my letter and think to themselves that  ” if this woman’s problems can be fixed then so can mine.” It isn’t just spider bites and poison ivy that homeopathy works on.

Thanks for Caring Ellen